So it turns out the midwife had no idea that I was there to talk about my depression, do GPs and midwives not communicate?
So we listened to the heartbeat and she said it was really strong and she could hear the baby moving, which I have been able to feel.
I had to basically tell her that I had actually come to be referred for counselling, then she asked if I thought it was the hormones.
No. I have bipolar.
So she said she has referred me to the maternity counsellors at the hospital but it can take a while so we would need to chase it up after my 25 week appointment if we’d heard nothing - that’s 9 weeks away!
I think this needs to be dealt with by an actual psychologist who understands that I had these issues before pregnancy so I will need to go back to my GP I think.
About to start work and feeling really tearful and anxious. Apparently the manager let me go early last night because he ‘didn’t know how to manage me’. Well the first step would probably be to avoid saying ‘we don’t have time for you to be getting all upset’ to a pregnant woman who has made clear the fact that she was feeling down.
I feel like I’m in a nightmare.